Worth it

I can’t decide if writing this editorial each week is becoming increasingly difficult because A) I have nothing left to say or B) I have too much left to say.

Either way, my time as Editor-in-Chief of the Torch is coming to a close. Across the newsroom, things are shifting as some people begin to step into their new roles while others prepare to make their exits.

It’s hard to believe there are only two issues left this year. Where did the time go? Wasn’t it just September and I was saying it felt like senior year was going to last forever?

I will admit while this last month or so has been a bit slow, overall, this year genuinely flew by. At the Torch, we’ve been reflecting on the work we’ve done this year—both individually and as a whole.

I didn’t really know what to expect when I became Editor-in-chief. To be honest, I wasn’t even sure if I wanted to be Editor-in-chief. Anyone who has ever been in a position with even a semi-significant degree of responsibility can relate to my apprehension.

It had its ups and downs to say the least. Some weeks, I was on top of the world and wanted to make out with all my coworkers for the geniuses they were. Other weeks, I wanted to strangle every single person I worked with before crawling into a hole and dying. Often, those weeks came one right after the other, making me wonder if I should be medicated.

I came to realize that’s just the nature of this business though, and by “this business,” I mean anything you’re passionate about.

When you love something, there are a lot of extreme highs and lows without much in between. When you invest yourself into something (like really put your heart and soul into it), you become vulnerable.

Vulnerability isn’t generally regarded as a positive thing. By definition, it means weakness. However, over the course of this year, I’ve learned to not only accept but also appreciate all the craziness.

This job was never easy. In fact, for the most part, it was really hard. However, there was never a week that went by that I didn’t think it was worth it.